“Not Quite Goodbye, But Almost”
October 5, 2017
I’ve seen you
I’ve seen it
I’ve seen us
And not a tear did I shed, I believe slowly I’ve untangled myself from a dangerous weaving, one that controlled my breathing and thinking and my poetic speech
I wrote broken-hearted love stories and told them to those of who never knew of the wars I’d been in; am I considered a bad person for allowing them to have that assumption?
I’d rather have you in my mind as my own fairytale, a used to be moment that the public cannot know of, and I smile at my little painful pleasures
I thought I’d still miss you ten years from now, but it’s slowly slipping into fewer than that and my link of distanced affection is weakening, but for once I don’t feel so bad
Of course, old friend; I miss you
I remember how our story began, and I miss it
I miss how your vocal chords would put me to sleep some nights and others, make the red in my skin more prominent
I miss how I used to watch the clock, how few hours ahead in time was the golden ticket and key to the gate that had me winning your adoration; I miss what our story could have been
But I’ve grown and I’m alone and I’m somewhat okay, but somewhat confused
I tie my shoelaces backwards and feel I am on the opposite side of my bathroom mirror, my world has gone black and white, but on good days no doubt I see color
Mr. Stranger, you, I cannot seem to stop counting, but I am still horrid at math, how is that?
Some days I twitch with envisionments, ones of what we’ve been through and what we could have made ourselves into, but I do not shed tears for what is lost because I have to make time to be found
I have to be okay with the fact that you are no longer here and I am no longer yours and there was no us to begin with, and your leaving me behind has sealed it
So for now, I shall enjoy my treasures of individuality, where the only voice inside my head is my own
A.K. 2017
Gregory Bolden- writer / producer • Oct 9, 2017 at 10:05 am
Great story that could apply to any relationship that has been either severed or put on the shelf for a season… I enjoyed the metaphors that were used, and the way that the writer made me feel.
I felt as if I was I vicariously telling the story…For many of us have engaged relationships where we either left someone feeling rejected and lonely, or we felt that way ourself.
The way the author was able to peak my curiosity to the point where I wanted to read more, was well-constructed. I wanted to discover if this was a love affair, a parental affair, or a personal friendship where someone had moved away.
In the conclusion, I enjoyed the way in which Ms. Shines was able to creatively reveal that this was an internal-affair, great job!
Culveretta Nolan • Oct 9, 2017 at 9:27 am
Congratulations Timi!!! Beautiful poem
So proud of you.
pete • Oct 5, 2017 at 9:36 pm
what a lovely poem that speaks so much volume I love it. it happens to come in the time of a need of one thank you…….
Tilewa • Oct 5, 2017 at 3:28 pm
Great Job Mufasaaa😊
Barry k • Oct 5, 2017 at 3:16 pm
This is amazing!!!
Ennie • Oct 5, 2017 at 2:37 pm
Timmy-kins 😥❤💕💕💕 I like